There's nothing wrong with wanting love. I got married for the first time at 51, lived happily as a single woman for many years before that, could've kept on going being happily single, but then I happened to meet someone, and got married. And I'm not ashamed to say I love it. Amazing Larry, if you feel you're deserving of love, that's all that matters. The best thing I can tell you is that your nontraditional path only makes you more interesting. Embrace it. Own it. Be your own force of nature.